Day 17 of 28

The critic is loud as I try and write. The critic is why I drink, play games, and employ other maladaptive coping strategies. Procrastination and avoidance are huge issues for me. I usually try to avoid things that make the critic vocal and spend time doing things that drowned it out.

I have been listening to The Biology of Desire: why addiction is not a disease by Marc Lewis. It was recommended by someone in the OYNB Slack. The author talks a lot about habit changing the brain. I have decided to quit playing Clash Royale and will be trying to go sugar-free. I am going to finish the chocolate milk I bought. Perhaps I will limit sugar. We will see. I have made the questionable decision to remain playing World of Warcraft. I am hoping to use it to work on my programming skills and social skills.

I am mainly going to try and avoid Candy, sweets, and soda. I don’t want to start reading packages to see if there’s sugar included. I will be doing fruits and juices. It’s funny, I’m more worried about quitting sugar and playing CR then alcohol.

I have been doing the 10% happier meditation challenge. I did miss two days but have meditated for 10 days in a row now, 11 days this year.

I also committed to run the year again, 2020 miles by December 31. I am currently 7 miles behind schedule. I created an Excel workbook to track my distance. I figured an average of 5.5 miles a day.

I will be trying to blog every day. This is day two. I am debating on sharing this or not. My guess is people won’t find this. I think I will add where I’m at with my various challenges at the bottom of the post.

I have purchased the JustAnotherGeekGirl URL. Now I will set up an email and figure out how to transfer my posts there. Should be fun.

Email is set up. Now to tackle transferring.

OMG my dog is farting. Gag!

That’s all for now.

status

  • No Fwb – 3y 2m 4d
  • Sugar free – 10 hrs
  • Royale Free – 10 hrs
  • RTY – 81 miles
  • Mindful minutes – 10 days straight, 11 days total, 524 hours
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January 11, 2020 – Day 11 of 28 OYNB

From Slack

Today is Day 11 of 28. Things are going ok. I made it through a bunch of situations where my normal was drinking: party with friends, dinner, brunch and being home alone. Now, I am at a cigar bar where I used to hang and drink. Instead, I am posting and smoking. Progress.

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January 7, 2020

Entry from Slack in OYNB

I did not think I would be 46, divorced, childless, 50+ lbs overweight, in a job where I am under-performing, in a house that needs 20k+ repair, in debt, have a failing car, devoid of close friends, issues with family, high degree of social anxiety, and approaching my second year of being single. I drink, game, and binge watch TV because I am stressed, overwhelmed, over sensitive, lonely, depressed, and anxious. I am on Day 6.58.
I am going to post try and post daily to this thread. Depression makes me isolate which exacerbates the loneliness. It will be a challenge to reach out.

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January 1

I celebrated the beginning of the new year with alcohol. 1 am was my last drink for 28 days. I did not come up with the idea of daily blogging until 1/16. I have decided to allow myself to back-fill.

 

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OYNB

January 1st, I signed up for a 28 day challenge with One Year No Beer (OYNB). Today is day 15. I have discovered my favorite mocktail is a version of a Moscow Mule.

I was drinking more than I should. I was anxious and depressed. Drinking numbs me.

 

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